Me and My Dreamy Eyes

(Source: thecrazyfilipino, via keshiasih)

It totally seems like I´ve been worrying bout my future for such a long time that I completely forgot about what it was I wanted anymore, or worse… how to get there?

ouch… how did I get here, I´ve been fighting against my own self that I´m just too tired to keep at it anymore, totally limited by my own expectations which is never good!

I guess I´m just not accustomed to change, I never said change wasn´t good, I just take a little longer than usual to get used to it and well I can´t help but feeling a whole emptiness… why? how did I become this person? I think I rather be angry with the world than show my weakness and cry…

I don´t regret this time, it was beautiful while it lasted, but I guess it´s time to go back to normality, to the life I led before this… everything that begins leads to an end… and I´m simply not the smoothest person saying goodbye, goodbye has always been one of the saddest words I´ll ever mention, maybe that´s why I always try to avoid saying it…!

If you´re reading, you´ll know this is for you… I really do wish that every road you take leads you to where you want to go, I hope that you realise that even when the world outside is cold you´ll always be able to show them the warmth of your smile, there are no limits to your dreams…I hope you never forget, all the ones who loved you and took care of you, hope you´ll always forgive and never regret but most of all my wish for you is that you achieve everything that you ever wanted… and never doubt yourself or limit yourself by your own expectations like I let myself do…!

I´m so sorry if I back away, if I turn my back on you when you need me the most but it´s my way of dwelling with this, I just really hope that you know that this has nothing to do with you, its personal, even though I´ll miss you… 

I need to figure a way to get out of this, why so many clouds above me, how can I find myself once again? I need to find a way out… how can I figure out what it used to be like when every piece in my life is upside down? I guess I´m just tired of waiting around, waiting for the answers to appear…I really wish you could be here with me right now, I really need a friend, I wish you could stay, I´m scared of sometimes not being able to find a way to continue… how can I start this all over again? how do I find my faith once again… Please don´t leave me alone…please don´t listen to me when I tell you to leave…don´t leave… stay in my life…!

... I know that I still haven´t found myself

and when I seem to stand on my own two feet

suddenly I feel like everything is possible

But every time I´m ready to leave and even though I try to pull away

I seem to be pulling in the wrong direction… oh damn you gravity

Why is it that everytime I open my heart up to someone

and share my deepest thoughts… 

certain events pull us away from each other

… I´m sick and tired of saying goodbye

But they keep saying that Bad beginnings make happy endings

And now that I know you I begin to understand things 

It´s like I found my missing piece…

There´s something about you, you warm up my heart

You´re like my soul mate, 

when I hurt, when I break

You are my band aid

When I feel like there´s n o one in this world that understands me,

the complications that I face every day, 

even though I try to hide, 

you see straight through my disguise 

you know how to fix me…

… and even though you´re very far away, 

miles away from me, 

I know that your voice can give me the warmth that I need

and I´m sure that no matter where you are, there´s no distance far enough for us

Everything´s so perfect when I feel you right next to me

So close even though you´re so far away

… I guess I´ll just have to continue trying to find myself…

…Good morning, pleased to meet you

You were just someone I randomly met, 

After five minutes, you were already someone special

without a single word, something inside of me lite up

I feel something soooo deep that has no form of explanation

There´s not reason or logic in my heart…

Come into my life

I open the door

I know that with you here I will never be alone

Come into my life

I beg of you

I started missing you at first

But then I began to need you…

…no I don´t need to understand it

´cos reason has never been useful to my heart,

my heart doesn´t think…there´s no need… I just feel

and let life takes its course…